Saturday, May 2, 2015
11:55 PM
I got up and went to his room, but he wasn’t there; the whole house was pitch black. I grabbed my phone and thought about texting to ask if he was on his way, but I couldn’t be that fucking dumb.
I went back to Carol’s room, totally disappointed. Truth was, it was a mess of feelings. On one hand I was still riding the high from that magical night with Carol, but I was also pissed because this night could’ve been fucking perfect. Carol had just eaten me out so damn good and I could’ve finally lost it to the guy I loved.
“Rafa, I told you, he always gets home super late,” Carol said, pulling me into a hug, trying to calm me down.
Fuck, I was dying to get fucked by him! But it was already past midnight and my cousin still hadn’t shown up. He’d gone out with his girlfriend—that slut—and said he’d be back early to spend time with me. He just didn’t know I was planning to lose my virginity that night. God, I was so fucking mad at Diego!!
I swear, I even thought about asking Carol to shove one of those rubber dicks inside me. I remembered reading somewhere about a girl who popped her cherry with a vibrator. She said she just started working it in and before she knew it her hymen was gone. She didn’t regret it, said it was better that way because she’d never give that to some guy.
I actually considered it—asking Carol or doing it myself. But at the same time I still had that stupid little-girl dream of having a special first time with a guy I actually loved.
I stayed quiet for a bit, staring at the ceiling. Then I just blurted out:
“Where’d you buy those toys? I’m thinking about getting some too.”
Carol rolled onto her side, smirking.
“Oh, I got them online. The best part is nothing sex-shop shows up on the credit card statement and it shows up in super plain packaging.”
She got up, grabbed her laptop, and flopped back on the bed.
“Wanna see?”
It was the first time I’d ever been on a sex shop site, and I was curious as hell to check everything out. In the dildos section I couldn’t believe how many sizes there were. Carol said her rubber dick was 19 cm, so I picked one about the same size.
But, you know how it goes, I got carried away and bought two: one with a suction cup, skin-tone, and another without, pink. Grabbed a Bullet just like hers too.
Order placed. Now all I had to do was wait for the damn package to show up.